[Did this piece for the Sunday Guardian]
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“Happiness always takes us
by surprise, or perhaps it is not happiness. It is one’s unhappiness diminished
in size.”
Is
this a happy book or a sad book? The question sounds trite and reductive, but
it leapt to mind as I turned the last page of Nirmal Verma’s Days of Longing, an English translation - by Krishna Baldev Vaid - of the 1964 novel वे दिन, now out in a new edition by Penguin’s Modern Classics. Depending on one’s perspective (and possibly depending on what
stage of life one is in), this could be an essentially sad story disguised as
something brighter, or the converse, a breezy, slice-of-life tale pretending to
be a tragic love story. Either way, this is among the most moving novels I have
read in a while – and in one sense at least, among the most unusual.
Here
is a book by an Indian writer, about an Indian student who has lived in cold
Prague for over two years, and is spending the Christmas holidays (a time of
year when overseas students typically go home) in the city, with the few
friends who are still around: among them a Burmese student named Than Thun
(TT), a restless German named Franz, who is studying cinematography but getting
nowhere, and Franz’s girlfriend Maria, who is unable to get the visa that will
allow her to leave the country with him. Much of their time is spent visiting
pubs or lolling about in their gloomy hostel, drinking vodka or beer or sherry
almost throughout the day, not so much to get drunk as to stay warm (as in so
many Eastern European novels, the weather seems a constant factor in the
characters’ lives, informing their actions and attitudes). They often go without
hot water and don’t seem to sleep for more than a couple of hours, but subsist
– more or less cheerfully – in each other’s company; they joke about living in
“the city of empty pockets and full bladders” (because there are very few
public urinals).
And
through all this, the Indianness of the unnamed narrator-protagonist scarcely
seems a factor at all***. For a reader used to the many soul-searching narratives
about displacement or exile in Indian English fiction, this can be startling.
We learn nothing about this young man’s family, his background, even which part
of India he comes from. (For the longest time, I didn’t picture him as Indian
at all; instead, drawing on a prior reference point for a story set in
Czechoslovakia, I saw him as a version of the wide-eyed, sallow-complexioned
Milos in the film Closely Watched Trains.) There is a mention
of a letter from home, which he isn’t eager to open (“I remembered
that I had not yet read my sister’s letter, but then I remembered that there
was no light. I felt happy at the thought that I wouldn’t have to read it that
night”), but it isn’t the case that something dramatic led him to
“escape” to a foreign land – it is more as if he has settled into a cocoon
beyond ideas of country or culture or nostalgia, a cocoon woven around new
friendships. “We had left home at a stage when our childhood connections had
been cut off and we hadn’t yet forged adult links with people and places,” he
tells us, speaking of himself and TT, “Our homes seemed unreal from afar, like
someone else’s homes, alien memories. They seemed meaningless, even ridiculous.”
Into
this languid, drifting life comes the seed of a “plot” when the narrator (I’ll
call him Indy for convenience, as his friends sometimes do) gets a temporary
job as an interpreter for an Austrian woman named Raina and her little son.
Indy and Raina grow close, and over the three days they spend together he
experiences a range of emotions, swelling, then subsiding and swelling again:
from hesitance and doubt to intense longing and awareness of hours spent apart,
to quiet jealousy and possessiveness, built on the knowledge that her previous
visit to Prague had been in the company of her now-estranged husband Jacques,
and that she may be attempting to relive it by going to the same spots again.
“It
bothered me,” he says, “I wanted her to look at everything for the first time.
But she seemed to be keen about revisiting places she had already seen.” And
then the simple yet powerful pathos of this line: “After knowing some people,
one can’t help feeling one’s met them a bit too late.”
“It
wasn’t age that separated us. It was her past, completely concealed from my
knowledge. There are houses that you can’t really enter even through their wide
open doors. They are alien, unpossessable.”
These
could be the thoughts of anyone who has wondered about a lover’s romantic
history, but here they also have to do with Raina’s experiences in the Second
World War. It occurred to me that with a shift in narrative focus, this novel
would strongly resemble William Styron’s Sophie’s Choice
(which came 15 years later), about a young man besotted by an older woman but
also permanently cut off from her by the terrible things she went through in
the past, and unable to compete with the ineradicable, sado-masochistic
relationship she has with the man who shared that past with her.
Days of Longing is not as obviously driven by political events as Styron's novel
– it is sparer, more abstract, more
concerned with a young man’s interior life than with larger histories. Yet the
shadows of those histories do loom in the background: in the brief allusions to
WWII (Raina makes the strange but believable admission that her relationship
with her husband, secure when they were living in turbulent, war-fractured
times, began to dissolve when peace arrived), but also in the little reminders
– through the parallel story of Franz and Maria, or a reference to a sad,
accordion-playing hostel inmate who can’t go home to Belgrade to be with his
family – of troubled relations between the European countries in the present
day of the narrative. Throughout, there is a sense of how the personal is
affected by the political.
And
hanging over Indy and Raina is the knowledge of how short-lived their
relationship is. In a sense, all their time together is preparation for being
separated (not unlike the lovers in Richard Linklater’s Before Sunrise) and the very temporariness makes it more intense, making him
more aware of the need to hold on to things and remember them; to be seduced by
the idea of love rather than the tangible presence of it. (“Remember the day we
went to the skating rink?” she asks. It is an oddly put question on the face of
it, since it refers to something that happened only 48 hours earlier. Yet it
makes sense – they are trying to fit a lifetime of longing into this short
period.)
In
fact, a possible key to this book’s mysteries is a description of love as a
temporary respite: “It was like an invisible fire that we could feel,
that had been trying to pierce through our mutual darkness […] Three days or three
years don’t make a difference unless we can catch hold of a burning moment in
the darkness, knowing full well that it won’t last and after it is extinguished
we will slide back into our own chilling solitude.” That burning
moment set against darkness finds an echo elsewhere in the book. At one point
Raina relates something she had once been told, about there being two kinds of
happiness, big and small. Small happiness includes the warmth provided by fire
or sherry, or the company of friends. “And the big happiness is to be able to
breathe, just to be able to breathe in open air.” The words, tellingly, came
from a Jewish man who was laughing and handing out cigarettes at the time, but
was later killed by the Germans.
This
elegant, hard-to-classify novel doesn’t quite provide a sense of closure or
even development, which is why it is difficult to think of it as a coming-of-age story – it seems Indy’s life will continue along a circuit, much
like the city’s trams gliding along their familiar routes (and perhaps I can call to mind here the ending of a favourite novel, also set in an Eastern European city, Kazuo Ishiguro’s The Unconsoled). But perhaps his time with Raina has
helped him come to terms with the crucial idea of “small” happiness, and the
possibility that this romance, so all-encompassing while it unfolded, could in
the larger view of things be just another addition to that list. Most of all,
perhaps the lesson he is learning is that there may not be anything so grand or
lasting as a big happiness.
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*** Of course, the question arises: if one were reading this book in the original Hindi, would it be possible to "forget" or disregard Indy's Indianness? I imagine not, having read an excerpt from वे दिन on Pustak.org.
P.S.
Krishna Baldev Vaid, a renowned writer himself, was a
contemporary and sometime friend of Nirmal Verma; for a sense of Vaid’s
often-ambivalent feelings about Verma and his work, read this tribute.
P.P.S. The Modern Classics imprint also has a new edition of The Red Tin Roof, a translation of Verma's लाल टीन की छत